At age 5, she wants to be a ballerina.
At age 8, she wants to be an astronaut.
At age 10, she wants to be a teacher.
At age 13, she wants to be a doctor.
At age 16, she wants to be dead.
Hi it’s been about 6 years since I first posted this and while I truly regret ever making a post like this I feel the need to add on to this.
As cliche as it sounds, things absolutely get better with time.
At 16 I may have felt this way, maybe even at 17 but
At 18 I was starting college. It was a new start with new people and a chance to make a change in my life. Things weren’t perfect, that’s how life is but I made new friends and surrounded myself with better people
By 20 I was finished with my associates and worked extra hard taking extra credits so I only had a year left for my bachelors degree. I also found a field that I absolutely love and can’t wait to continue learning about
I’m 21 now, turning 22 soon.
I’ve enlisted in the usmc. My job is also something I like and interests me completely. Once I finish my bachelors degree I’ll be an officer candidate.
I’ve had the same job for the past 3 years, which is actually where I met my significant other. We’ve known each other for 3 years and have been together for almost a full year now. He is the most caring, understanding, and loving person I’ve ever known. He’s shown me a love I never knew or thought was possible and has been my biggest supporter through many many things.
For the first time ever I have a good relationship with my parents.
So yeah, things can be bleak and absolutely horrible, I completely get it. Ive dealt wit anxiety and depression and while it doesn’t completely go away, it DOES get better. You have a bad day here and there but the good days outnumber the bad. There will be sooo many good days and so many things to look forward to. I think back to things like this post and how I wanted to die for so long and I’m just so happy and thankful to still be here because I’ve experience so many wonderful things. I’ve gone to places I dreamed of going to, I’ve done things that have been on my bucket list, I’ve felt so alive that i forgot how sad I had been in the past.
You just have to hang in there.
Take things day by day because I swear it gets so much better than it is right now
